As I was pushing the first glaze through my rotary sieve, I noticed that some of the material was not flowing through the sieve easily or maybe at all. I was pretty sure it was the silica. Every chemical in a glaze is critical, but silica is one of the three main ingredients of clays and glaze materials, along with alumina and ceramic fluxes. It is a glass-former and is the principal ingredient in ceramic glazes. I thought it looked too coarse when I was measuring it out, but figured it was okay, especially since that was what the folks at the ceramic supply company sold me when I asked for silica. It just would not go through the openings in the sieve, despite how long I tried to push it through. In the end, I dumped the material that wouldn’t go through back into the glaze bucket and decided I needed to do some research into whether the silica that I put in the glaze was in fact the right stuff. Isn’t silica, silica? With all of the glaze chemicals added to each bucket and mixed up but not sieved due to the silica clogging up, I had a sinking feeling that I had screwed up. So much for reducing variables.
I contacted the supplier and was put in touch with their glaze expert in the office. I explained the situation. He looked over my recent order of chemicals to see what I was working with. After a few minutes of silence while he looked over my order, he said that it looked like the problem was the silica. Just as I had expected. Our conversation from there went like this. He offered, “Looks like you ordered silica sand. Why did you order that instead of silica oxide? You never put silica sand in glazes. You wanted silica oxide or flint, not silica sand.” I said, “Oh, okay, thanks.” Yup, I screwed up
I tried to remember whether I had a conversation with anyone at the supply company when I placed the order about which silica I wanted, but I couldn’t. Did someone ask if me which silica I wanted, oxide or sand, and I answered sand? Whatever the case, he confirmed what I had feared that I had four buckets of glaze that likely would have to be dumped. In addition to being angry about the possibility that close to 40,000 grams (almost 90 pounds!) of glaze was wasted, I was unsure how I would properly dispose of it. I had wasted some valuable resources of chemicals, time and money and I felt very stupid. Shifting the blame to the folks at the supplier lasted only a few minutes and then the blame came back to me. I emailed the glaze expert at the supply company and asked if I might be able to screen out the silica sand and add some silica oxide thereby salvaging the batches of glaze. He thought that might work, but it could also result, in his words, a huge mess. He suggested that I run plenty of tests before using it on pots. I thanked him for the advice and then closed by telling him that I was just returning to ceramics after having been away from if for about 45 years. Maybe, I wrote, I had waited too long. After not getting a response back from him like, don’t worry about the silica mistake, everybody does that or; hey, no worries, you’re never too old or; maybe something like, good for you!, I got nothing. Maybe I had waited too long. It had been a long time since taking glaze chemistry in college. Maybe too long.
In September of 1971, I started my first year as a ceramics major at the School for American Craftsmen (since renamed the School for American Crafts to reflect that women can also work at crafts) at Rochester Institute of Technology in Rochester, New York. There were fewer than ten of us admitted to the program as freshmen that year and along with about the same number of students in each of the other three classes and a handful of graduate student, we were the ceramics program. I was 18 years old and eager to learn. Coming from Vermont and a small town with a small high school, we didn’t have an Art program until I was a junior and even them, ceramics was not part of the curriculum. I learned to make pots from a man in our community who was generous enough to welcome me as his student every afternoon and on weekends in exchange for me helping him with his work and with jobs around the studio. My first class at RIT on my first day of college was glaze chemistry. The class met in a small conference room that had tables and chalkboard and was located just inside the main entrance to the ceramics department. The tables were big enough for the eight of us and our professor, Hobart Cowles, to sit around with space for our notebooks and books and several ashtrays. Hobart was probably in his late forties then, slim, balding, trimmed grey mustache, glasses with a serious demeanor, very serious. In those days, smoking cigarettes was a normal activity not only in college buildings, but in classes and many of us, including Hobart, smoked during class. About two minutes into every session of glaze chemistry, the room was full of smoke and stayed that way until someone opened the door or the class ended. I didn’t see it then (I quit smoking three years later), but how inconsiderate and irresponsible could we possibly have been, but that’s just the way it was.